Don’t be an asshole and let fear stop you

I posted my first video blog on you tube:  Don’t be an asshole and let fear stop you

Here is the written version:

Hi

In honour of my public speaking course at Trent, I’ve decided to try a video blog.

When I announced my enrollment into the course on social media (hence, when it became official) I received very encouraging feedback – thanks friends and followers!

Some wrote that they believed me to be incredibly brave – fearless in fact! Wow – that is so amazing but yet, so far from the truth.

I am actually scared of almost everything.

From “Did I hear something move in the bedroom?” to “Why is that squirrel looking at me like that?” to “What happens if I fail?”

I used this example in my class and my teacher asked me, so why do they think you’re brave?

Because I don’t let it stop me.

Because I kind of like that adrenaline rush of, holy shit here we go!

Whether I’m creeping upstairs to the bedroom with a hockey stick ready to smash any potential intruders or packing up everything to start a brand new life. I have now done this twice though for very different reasons.

I moved to Peterborough for love and change. I have found both.

But hot damn, is it ever scary.

And I have had to come to terms with the fact that not everything hardly anything is going to happen exactly how I had planned it.

Isn’t that humbling?

and scary.

Thankfully I have the most amazing network of friends and family who help me put things in perspective and most importantly, remind me to laugh.

I have learned to let go of my ego and recognize that there is a limit to how much I can control in my life.

I follow Jennifer Pastiloff on social media and she has a “Don’t be an asshole.” mantra which I love and repeat to myself multiple times per day.

Here is my version:

Don’t be an asshole and let fear stop you. Don’t think that the bend in the road is the end of the road. Let go of your ego and keep moving. Keep living. And keep laughing. Preferably at yourself.

xo

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@pixiepaperdoll7