#BellLetsTalk Day

January 28th, 2015 is Bell Let’s Talk Day; A day to talk openly about mental health issues. January 28th, 2015 also marks 267 days since Jason (my ex-partner and father of our kids) took his life. 267 days of grief. 267 days of heaviness that fades but never goes away. 267 days of regret. I’ve…

Stigma Fighters

Last week I was approached by Stigma Fighters: a blog series about real people living with mental illness. Sarah Fader, the founder asked if I would write an article about my own experience. I submitted this piece about Jason’s death, in particular the first 24 hours after getting the news. Stigma Fighters is about to…

Dear Jerk (6 months later)

Yes. You’re still a jerk. The kids and I had a soul-satisfying summer. We went on a 3-week road trip/pilgrimage across Western Canada. It was an amazing journey of healing for all of us. We grieved for you daily but felt strong and connected. “Look at us. We’ve got our shit together!” Then September bitch…

Happy Birthday Jason

September 11, 2014 Jason’s 43rd birthday. It’s been 4 months and 5 days since he took his life. I asked Rain and Moxie how we should celebrate. “Can we get a birthday cake?” Sure, this seems appropriate. “What kind?” “He likes white cake. With white icing. And white whip cream trim. But not a lot…

Dear Jerk.

Dear Jerk, I drove Rain and Moxie to Dresden this weekend for your interment. Up until now I didn’t even know that word existed. I guess I should thank you for increasing my vocabulary. While I’m at it, thanks for giving me the opportunity to explain cremation to our kids (I’m not sure it translates…