March is for madness.

  I don’t know about you but I am not at my best in March. All of my strategies to get through the long dark winter have been tossed aside along with the chip wrappers, wine bottles and dirty casserole dishes. I’m tired. I’m hiding an extra layer of fat under my sweat pants and…

Happy Birthday Jason!

Today is your 44th birthday and to celebrate we had meat and cake for dinner (as per very specific requests). No fancy party hats or horns like last year but I did give a gift to all of us: a Rhodonite stone. Rain saw them at the store a couple weeks ago. (He has recently…

Hoop’s Memorial Hockey Game

Last night Team Adventurers were thrilled to attend a Memorial Hockey game.  Rain and Moxie’s Dad (Hoop) has some amazing friends who put together an impressive show and after party in his honour.  The proceeds (a whopping $4,466) are to be transferred to a trust fund for Rain and Moxie. To make the evening even more…

#BellLetsTalk Day

January 28th, 2015 is Bell Let’s Talk Day; A day to talk openly about mental health issues. January 28th, 2015 also marks 267 days since Jason (my ex-partner and father of our kids) took his life. 267 days of grief. 267 days of heaviness that fades but never goes away. 267 days of regret. I’ve…

Stigma Fighters

Last week I was approached by Stigma Fighters: a blog series about real people living with mental illness. Sarah Fader, the founder asked if I would write an article about my own experience. I submitted this piece about Jason’s death, in particular the first 24 hours after getting the news. Stigma Fighters is about to…

Dear Jerk (6 months later)

Yes. You’re still a jerk. The kids and I had a soul-satisfying summer. We went on a 3-week road trip/pilgrimage across Western Canada. It was an amazing journey of healing for all of us. We grieved for you daily but felt strong and connected. “Look at us. We’ve got our shit together!” Then September bitch…

Happy Birthday Jason

September 11, 2014 Jason’s 43rd birthday. It’s been 4 months and 5 days since he took his life. I asked Rain and Moxie how we should celebrate. “Can we get a birthday cake?” Sure, this seems appropriate. “What kind?” “He likes white cake. With white icing. And white whip cream trim. But not a lot…